Firestorm by Caitlin Ricci

Author:Caitlin Ricci [Ricci, Caitlin]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2019-10-31T04:00:00+00:00

Chapter Twelve

Nicholai

I lay there among Dante's things on his bed, and I tried to sleep since I was exhausted from bouncing back and forth and travelling so much lately. I found sleep impossible to grasp. I yawned and rolled over onto my stomach. I wanted things to be better. I wanted the four of us to be better. But I had no idea how to make that happen. Maybe it wasn't possible in my lifetime. I hated to think like that but maybe it was the truth. Maybe I was the mistake in the very long line of people who had given Fire a place to call home. Surely, I wasn't the first, even though I hadn't heard of any others.

I heard Wind and Earth come back and I continued to lay there. They were friends and I was not part of that group, not unless I needed them for something or they needed me. I needed my rest and they needed their time together. Fire had dropped a bomb on Dante. I wanted to see how he was doing but I was sure my presence wouldn't be welcome in that party. I was the last person he wanted to see right then.

Most likely I was the last person he wanted to see always. I was a walking, talking reminder of the man he'd loved and lost, and who he now knew had cheated on him with their neighbor. It hadn't meant anything to Elijah, but I knew it meant plenty to Dante. He'd be hurting right now and feeling betrayed, and I wanted to go to him, but I knew I wasn't the person to help try to make things right for him. I was better off getting a few hours of sleep and then leaving again. Overall, things would always be better with me gone. I knew that. I'd known that for years. That was why my parents had kicked me out and why I hadn't ever had any friends. I was better alone, and people were better without me. It sucked, but that was the way of things. I was Fire and we weren't good to people. We caused harm and pain and people knew that.

I felt Fire there in my mind, wanting to go comfort Water, but I also knew Water wasn't the one who needed comforting right then. Water's partner hadn't cheated on him at all. Fire was absolutely devoted to him; it was Elijah who had wanted something outside of this cycle of Fire and Water being.

"Has anyone ever actually denied you two?" I asked Fire.

I felt his anger and I winced as heat seared up the base of my skull and shot out to my temples. He didn't even want to talk about that. My guess was someone probably had tried, once or twice, and it hadn't gone well. Maybe they'd been in constant pain like I was whenever I tried to have sex with anyone else. Fire would probably love it if Dante ever decided I was worth being interested in.

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